I hate being forced into things. I hate how people assume they know what I want. I hate how even though I politely decline to attend an event you're the one who gets to be 'pissed off'. Can't I do what I want? Isn't it fair that I can say that I don't want to go to your social event, simply because I don't want to? What right do you have to force me into going and then say you're 'pissed off' at me. Admittedly, even though I care very little of what you think of me - I still can not let your childish tantrum be thrown at me and I thoroughly dislike being begrudged. I hope you realise some day how pathetic and selfish you are without me pointing it out to you.

I'm also getting sick of attending particular family shindigs. I've come to realise that my brother and I don't fit in there with my father being gone and my mother refusing to attend due to her paranoia. We don't belong with those people who may be our flesh and blood, nothing binds us there other than the obligation presented to us by our relatives. I no longer want to attend these events. I'm tired of them. I feel out of place and always want to leave early. It would be better if we no longer went to such events. They're no longer the social occurences that we attended with our nuclear family. We're there because they feel they have to invite us and in turn we feel that we have to attend. I hate it. It's no longer the fun it used to be and I'm starting to feel lonely.